2010 drama

Ok, basically this blog is for me to either: rant/ complain/ explain or state and write to myself about my own problems/memories/experiences...^^ Merely created out of boredom and lack of social life, since facebook doesn't count.

*mind that I write long blogs*

INTRODUCING.......*drumroll*....... You're average teen asian..........................not ;)

Well I'm usually known by the name Viv, or Vivi, or Vivi-chan, or even Jinglez sometimes.......but Viv will do. I'm *currently* 16 years old, attending school at McKinnon S.C.

Hmmm what to write now......Well I'll talk about myself :) I wouldn't call myself average/normal asian, I refer myself as an asian rebel or a *white* asian(sometimes I leave the asian bit out of that >.<) . I love breaking rules, sneaking out at night, and I'm exceptionally good at not listening to my parents :) I'm quite narcissistic, therefore I love myself very much. I also think that I have Sinophobia, which is fear of the Chinese culture...I don't know why, but I hate asians(mostly chicks and some guys) who hang in groups, but I do make exceptions for some who I think are special/unique.
Moving on........

In my ever so exciting life, music takes up a big portion of it. developed an interest in metal music, and as expected, not many of my friends favour that genre...I began listening to this when I met my best friend; I will call her ms awesome, in year 9( she's another story and shall be written in another blog). I also enjoy arts, music and most creative activities. A few points to why I should not be called asian: I HATE maths; not good at it either, I definitely do not want to be a doctor when I grow up, I'm more superior than asians, I have an awesome personality instead of being the sheep in the crowd, which is what I think most asians do.....go with the flow. That's all I can think up of right now :)

Well now that I've kind of introduced myself, I shall write about my memories in year 11 2010 ^^

This year has been......pretty fucking weird, with a lot of drama. At the beginning of 2010, I was hoping to have a more relaxing year after the more dramatic year in 2009, I guess that didn't go as planned. This year was probably considered as my *teenage drama* year. From February to March/April, I went out with my ex again. I'll call him 'mr x'. Mr x and I first started dating in year 7 and was my first boyfriend. We had been on and off throughout the years and got back together again this year. We were seen as the perfect couple, until shit hit the fan. I will admit that I've made mistakes in my life, which I don't always regret, but I've made pretty damn stupid ones this year. Usually I tell myself that Im being human by making them, but for once Im going to admit I regret the ones made in 2010. As I was saying before, mr x and I were deeply in love, until I made a stupid mistake. For rethinking our love, I was mistaken to have dumped him to chase after another guy, which was not the case, just bad timing(I will not explain further). Mr x stopped talking to me. A while after the breakup, I met a nice guy who I genuinely liked, I shall call him mr a. Mr a and I met through friends, and we developed feelings for each other, therefore he asked me out. This didn't last long due to stupid rumours and misunderstandings, so he broke up with me a week later. After this breakup, mr x began talking to me again. We eventually got back together, and this was when drama began. Personal problems were involved and our relationship became complicated, with many arguments in between. I found myself hoping we'd be happy in the future, instead of being happy in the present. Situations became worse and in the end, mr x broke up with me after a fight. We are not talking.

After the 'mr x' crisis, I found myself unable to remain in relationships. I had dated 3 guys after the breakup and none lasted more than 2 weeks. I found myself continuously attempting to get over mr x, but kept comparing my relationship with the current boyfriend to what me and mr x had. I realised that I could no longer maintain relationships with guys, therefore forced myself to turn gay. Thinking that girls treasured feelings more, I attempted to casually date ms awesome, who was the one that turned me bisexual throughout year 9. This merely was not enough, and I found myself still attracted to guys. T_T So that plan failed, now I am just coping with life as best as I possibly can. ^^